There are choices in this world. Some are good, some are bad. Some are easy, some are hard. They're all around you. What you wear, what you say, who you talk to. What to think. Where to go.
There's family. You love them dearly, even when they are pests. They are great, artistic, lively almost always a good time to be around. Not unbroken, but happy nonetheless. You adore them. They're yours, even when they're being difficult to deal with.
There's fun. A theme park. a place you haven't been since you were six, and you have this chance to go there, one last time, without paying a dime. Not. A. Dime. It's the chance of the life time, one week spent in a place where fun is pretty much all around you.
There's Christmas. A holiday celebrated world wide. For your family, it has religious meaning, and isn't just about the gifts. It's the most wonderful time of the year, about family, and God, and all the wonderful things that have happened and will happen. The gifts help too.
Then there's this choice. It's hard, and it's up to you. It's a choice between a free vacation and dropping a thousand on plane tickets. It's the choice between family members- a sister and brother-in-law with their adorable daughter, or your grandparents and a dad you haven't seen in months- that you love and adore. It's a difficult choice, because when it comes right down to it, you aren't certain you don't just want to hide out in a small cottage in the wilderness, away from any electronics or people and simple relax.
You're the only one who can make this choice. You don't have much time, but you know all sort of things, and they all effect it. You sister and her family arranged their vacation just so you could come. Your dad is coming all the way across the ocean just to see you and his family. You promised your niece you would go, but forgot. You promised your grandma you would see her.
There's work too. You're moving out on your own soon, and need the money to afford a place to stay. There's cash strapped, and then there's you, working a day a week, and desperately seeking a second job. It doesn't help your going to college, full time starting the same time you're moving out. Life is tough, and normally your happy.
Now though, now it's even tougher. You feel pressured to do both, but can't afford either. You want to, but know you shouldn't. You simply can't do this, and you know it, but if you don't go, then you'll make someone, somewhere cry, and it kills you when you do that.
Three choices: a free vacation, to visit much loved family, or to stay, because quite frankly you can't afford it, even if others are paying, because you're getting started in life, and just aren't on your feet enough to do these things.
You don't want the vacation, at all, and have never been excited about it, but have been pressured for two years now into going. Go, go, go, go, go! This ride and this attraction, and which one do you think we should do. Where should we eat. At least three-four times a week you hear about it, and at least once a week you get stopped to be asked something about it. You're sick of it, and you don't think you're even going.
You want to see your family, but at this point, you feel horrible for saying no to the vacation. You feel irresponsible, and bad, and that you're the scum of the earth, and though you want to see your family, you're having to borrow money from a dad who can't really afford it right now to go, and besides, you don't even live near him. So what do you do? You want to, but you don't.
You want to just be on your own for awhile, maybe came out in the woods, or out in somebodies farm land, away from sight and mind. You really just want some time unattached to electronics, or people, and just relax, with your art and your stories and one or two really good book, before you move out on your own for good.
That would be ideal.
You don't have a tent, but a friend does, and you can always borrow it.
You're lost, alone, and feel like this is a life changing decision, even though it's not. What do you choose? Your family, a free vacation, or just some time to recharge your batteries in peace?
How can you possibly decide?